An Overview.

"Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life."
- Confuscious.

So idealistic is this statement that I'd never thought it'll ever happen to me.
I remember the first time I met Zinc at Suntec Coffeebean almost 2 years ago. We were doing some self-introduction and she told me she was a NUS business grad. I was really surprised and asked her if she had ever thought of changing job. She smiled at me and said very calmly while looking straight into my eyes, no.

I didn't believe her then, but now, I do. With every fiber of my being, I finally understood what she meant.

As I'm writing this entry, it's a sunny wednesday afternoon. Yes, I didn't go to work today!! And yes, I don't have to if I don't want to. Take that suckers! hahaha...
What job can possibily give you this extent of freedom? Property? Trading?? Dude, as I'm typing I'm still enjoying a passive income!! I'm getting paid even if I don't work!

hehehe... right, enough of work. Today, I tried to be adventurous. Well, to a certain extent. Seeing the delicious golden rays of sun, I decided to take my blades out and head down to the park nearby, intending to sweat out layers of fat that had accumulated due to my busy schedule/mission to earn money.

The journey to the park was perilous. Rocky pathment, unable to stop without assistance at the road junctions and a series of minor slopes before I could reach my destination.
Yet, to my horror, at the start of the park is a major motherF**king scary slope!!! ARGH!!! My bad, it didn't occurred to me that the slope might cause a problem as on normal days when I go there for a jog, slopes are irrelevent.

SO I took a good 30 mins before I managed to psyche up enough courage to take the first step. "Ring!" - What the...
"hello?"
"Hi is this esther?"
"yes?"
"Esther this is Elise from policy-servicing, you have an investment top-up case for Mr XXX?"
"yes, what about it?"
"We need your manager's approval in order to process the case urgently."
"ah ok, is it possible that my manager submits a memo to state that he supports the recommendation?"
"yes that is fine too."
"ok, I'll get it done tmr as I'm actually blading right now, deciding to go down a slope or not."
Girlish laughter on the other side.
"Sorry how do i address you again?"
"I'm elise"
"Thanks Elise, I'll make sure it's done tmr. Pray that I'll make it through in one piece in the next 5 mins."
Girlish laughter again.
"ok. good luck."
"thanks"

I took a deep breathe while putting my phone back into the waist pouch.
Music please!! "Here... we... go! baby where you get your body from? baby where you get your body from..."
ARGH! Music was killed by an ugly sound of rubber scrapping on the cement and followed by the sick sound of my bump hitting the group. My dorsal side skidded a metre across the hot, hard cement.

I curl to my right side as pain attacked my senses. "Ring!" This cant be happening...
'Hello?" (panting from pain)
"Eh, where are you?" (My JC and Unimate, mikeller who happened to work in tanjong pagar area too.
"In sembawang... why leh?"
"Kopi la"
"Aiyo charbo, I just fell while blading down a slope... can't you hear i'm in pain??"
"hahaha... why today no need to work?"
"coz I don't feel like working la."
"Eh dinner leh.."
"ah? you want me to head down town injured??"
"Thought you're going out tonight?"
"Dunnoe leh... Bro havent confirm anything.."
"Dinner first la"
"What time?"
"6 plus?"
"make it 7 then." I need time to wash up and put medication."
"ok"
"see you"

Total damage: 3/4 of my left butt is scrapped, both my elbows are bleeding and my bump is really really sore~!

Funny isnt it? I'm not ashamed that I fell. It's alright to fall. Afterall, I'm really an amateur in roller-blading. I'm proud to overcome my fear and just do it.
The rush of adrenaline is fantastic, so is the fear of falling. I think i will still try again. The thought that helped me overcome my fear is remembering what Mr Bernard Ho said: It's alright to be afraid. In fact it is perfectly normal to fear something, courage is the ability to overcome the fear and do it. Courage doesnt mean there's no fear, it means you tried to overcome it. :)

It's the same for my job, calling people that you've never met before is a very scary thing to me. Calling people that I've met on the streets is also a very scary thing because of the natural fear of rejection/failure. I'm proud to say that everyday, I'm getting more and more courageous, with every 1 hr of the day I allocate to do calliing. :)